Monday, September 8, 2008

My Heart is Still so Full...

Today is a good day. After getting R off to school, C and I headed to the gym where I ran a good, steady five miles. Then, we were off to the Dr.'s office for his 4 year check up. He hates (and that is putting it mildly) going to the doctor. He clung to me like a little monkey. There was no bribery that would change the fact that HE DID NOT WANT TO BE THERE! However, we survived the poking and prodding...even the 4 shots! As we got in the car, I told him we could go have a special lunch before school...that seemed to make everything better. After 5 minutes of driving my little man was sound asleep. Therefore, I decided to skip the lunch and school...he needed his sleep.
So, here I am. As I sat down at the computer, I told myself "only 10 minutes". Well, that was over an hour ago! I became engrossed with reading NieNie's blog (the young mother who is in critical condition from the place crash). My heart is so full of sadness for her and her family. I keep thinking of her and her husband, lying in separate hospital beds...in separate rooms...separated from their children. Although they are heavily sedated, what thoughts are floating through their minds? Hopefully, they are having one continuous, fabulous dream. As I read her blog, I felt like I was reading a good book - I just couldn't put it down. I even went to the freezer and pulled out the gallon of cookie dough ice cream (don't tell R) and sat here with a spoon...just reading and eating! (Thank goodness for that run this morning!)
I have become so consumed with this family I have never met. Tears roll down my cheeks as I read her stories. I "listen" to her talk of the daily routines in her life...her children...motherhood and the deep love she has for her husband. I can't help but wonder, what will the next chapter entail? How will this story end?
Again, it makes me reflect on my own life. I love being a mother and wife - more than anything. I truly feel it is what I am supposed to be doing...my calling so to speak. I am madly in love with my husband and appreciate all he does for me and our family. My heart would be broken forever if this was ever taken away from me...just as my heart is broken for this lovely family. But, on a lighter note, my heart is also full of happiness for this family. They have such awesome love and support from family and friends. I believe in the power of prayer...and I know prayers are being heard from around the world for Stephanie and Christian Neilson.

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