Thursday, November 6, 2008

A Smiling Soul

Not only does my little brother possess a wise, old soul...but, he is one of the most caring, kindest and happiest people I know. And today, he helped lift me out of a political funk.
A few things had still been weighting on my mind...propositions 102 in AZ and 8 in CA. I fell asleep thinking about them. And, they were still there when I opened my eyes this morning. Then, I made the mistake of reading certain things in the AZ Republic. I don't know why, but for some reason I enjoy perusing the letters to the editor. Just to hear every one's opinions, views, etc. It can be quite entertaining at times. However, this morning was not entertaining...it was disheartening. The first letter I read basically said that "if I had known the voters would elect an inexperienced minority as our President...I would have never put my life in harm's way fighting for our Constitution during WWII." My eyes were in shock as my brain tried to digest it. I have so much respect for anyone who has or is serving to protect our rights and our country...and my freedom to vote! The second letter was from an Arpaio supporter. He said, "In AZ, we do not want illegal immigrants. And if you do anything to land yourself in jail - we don't want you here either!" He then went on to congratulate ol' Joe...glad he was remaining in office. Now, I am so grateful we have freedom of speech and these two individuals were able to express their views...I'm just sorry my eyes absorbed it.
With these letters lingering in my mind I headed to the gym where I watched and read CNN while on the treadmill. I saw the protesters in CA...clerks having to stop weddings...people not smiling...sad people. And I just kept thinking why, why, why? This issue has struck a chord so deep inside my soul. My heart is broken because, upon extensive research, I found the religion in which I was born into...a religion in which I spent the fist 20 years of my life dedicated to, is one of the biggest supporters of these propositions. My hands are shaking and my heart is pounding as I write this...because, I know many people who are dear to me probably supported these issues...and probably reading this right now. From the bottom of my heart, I do not mean any disrespect. These are my feelings...we all have our free agency and our right to choose. But, the whole thing brings tears to my eyes and such sadness to my heart...because, I just don't get it. Who cares how marriage is defined...as long as there is love, trust and friendship. If a religion wants to preach the definition of marriage - that's fine. But, for a government to preach the definition of a marriage? It's just not right. I know there are probably several religious organizations that are/were backers of these propositions...but, I was only raised in one...and what pride and respect I had left...is slowly diminishing.
So, where does my sweet, little brother fit in to all of this? Well, knowing that he and I are on the same page, I called him this morning and vented for almost an hour. We both vented and we both agreed on things. But, he ended things by saying, "But you know what? More good things came out of the elections than bad and the sun is shining. It's a beautiful day. My life is good. Your life is good. I'm smiling and where ever I go, people are smiling. Now, maybe that's because I'm smiling at them...but, still - they are smiling." And then, when I got home and checked my email I had one waiting from him. And it was full of love and positive energy...and a darling picture of my precious nephew wearing a onesie with a big peace sign on it! Not only that, but he had dropped off a John Lennon CD for me...to make my soul happy.
Every one of our childhood pictures (from Santa Claus to the Easter Bunny) Troy is smiling so big he is almost giggly. He is still that way. Therefore, his soul is always smiling...
Thank you Troy Boy! I love you!

2 comments:

sixwinks said...

I just got caught up on your blog... thanks a lot... you made me cry! 2 funny things, Greg and I were engaged in Grant Park, isn't that cool? And Grace is 8 too. You think they will remember this when they are older? Yeah... but I wonder what and how they will remember it. Another thing, it didn't pass here either, I don't understand.

The Bookout Family said...

One day at a time, one mind changed at a time, but a smile at everyone changes much more than their vote. YOu change what might be lingering inside of them. You just might MAKE THEIR DAY!!! What a concept... No matter how bad the day seems, I always pull something positive, maybe simple but positive. We will get there, but just remember that one smile could lead to a conversation which might lead to a friendship or an opening of theirs eyes or maybe yours as well. All because we were not afraid to smile or say Hi.